They say that You're not limited
by MY lack of imagination
But my faith & peace are tried
with total consternation
from this in-the-darkness feeling
I can't see & my mind's reeling
Doubt creeps in, & now it's stealing
my belief that You're revealing
the right amount of truth for me,
-for just today, it's all I need.
That's what they say, "stay in today,"
& by the Spirit, You will lead.
But do You know how hard it is
to have unanswered questions?
I grit my teeth & bite my tongue
against all my suggestions,
to "make me this" and "give me that"
& heal my loved ones NOW.
If You want me to live Your will,
You'll have to show me how.
Cuz right now, I feel really tried
And I'll admit that, for today,
I'm angry and dissatisfied.
Your light feels pretty far away.
See, on one hand, I know it's true
That my heart rests within Your hands,
and in spite of my lack of sight,
You have in store most wonrdous plans.
But on the other hand, dear God,
I'm overwrought with doubt and fear.
I know it's wrong to doubt Your grace,
But please show me that You are near.
My heart, it's burdened with a weight
that has a thousand names.
I'm angry with this life today,
and all her foolish games.
Yet, deep down in my heart, I cry
out to Your name, my God Who Saves
who brings together heav'n and earth
Who holds me through the end of days.
